I got my back

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I’m disappointed in my medical care. I’m prescribed a protocol of chemotherapy that is engineered to kick my cancer to the curb. It is called EPOCH-R and is comprised of a drug for each letter of the acronym.

Friday – On my first 24 hour setup it dawned on me I was not given the P med. That is Prednisone for the pharmacy folks. I had to call in and get it. I take it each day. It is a steroid and assist helping the chemo kick ass. Without the P this would be useless.

Monday – I’m back at the center to hand in my back pack and have my last round of anti nausea meds ran with my one  hour of Cyclophosphamide. That is the mustard gas derivative that makes me sterile.

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So today the nurse didn’t know that I was set to receive a bag of fun cycloprmo-jo-jo-pharmacide.

This marks the 2nd time during this chemotherapy run that I had to give a  reminder in order for me to stick to the protocol.  I expect better from the number 1. And for the price I should get the world.

So enough with me covering my own ass over here. Kendra and I had one heck of a day.

We went to the Herman Park and ended up in the zoo. Sure Kendra was there last week but this time I was her only responsibility. I know I had a great time and Kendra is happy she made friends with a giraffe and he came over to be pet. I will post up zoo photos later.

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Today we played around taking photos with the “new to me” lens we bought this week. It was well worth the 40 bucks. It is a super zoom lens when attached to my NEX7 Sony camera.

Well enough nerd talk right now. Zoo photos will be up on Facebook later tonight. We will have some clinic time on Tuesday and then off to Corpus Christi.

Take care of yourself
Derrick

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Hair today, gone tomorrow

So this passed week the hair on the top of my head started to fall out. You might have seen the post and the video where I shaved it off before it fell out in patches. This week will be when I go from some hair to no hair. My eyebrows are now starting to fall like the autumn leaves.

Derrick Perrin eyes wide open

Derrick Perrin with open eyes

My hair loss was really strange. I knew from the time I talked with my oncologist that I would be hit with some really strong chemotherapy. Due to my age they put me on high octane chemo. EPOCH+R or R-EPOCH is my chemotherapy of choice. Last week I felt some tingling associated with my hair follicles. Three days after the tingle I was out in my garage shaving them off. Three days ago I felt the same thing with my eyebrows and today with a mild pull and no pain I can get the hair to come right out.
MD Anderson has classes on how to paint on eyebrows and choosing the right wig. I think I might go to the “Groucho Marx” school of makeup.

I’m guessing spreading some super glue to my last few hairs wont make them say and look good? I really feel for the women I see around who are bald. They work so hard a beauty and advertising would make you think flowing hair is your key to Saint Peter’s gates, but its not. It is temporary and if this shit doesn’t kill you it will make you stronger.

I can’t wait till all my other hair falls out and I will go to Halloween as an Olympic swimmer.

Well that is it for now. If you want to find me just follow the track of hairs left behind.

-Derrick

Happy Birthday Benjamin

Last Wednesday night we packed up the kids and headed to Port Lavaca to drop off our pack. On the way there Kendra and I were talking about Benjamin’s Birthday coming up. I was shocked to find out it was going to take place on this 5 day stretch of chemotherapy.  So the sad moment sets in when I figure out cancer has taken away the opportunity to celebrate Ben’s birthday on his actual birthday.
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We did call and get to talk with him on his birthday. He was happy with his balloons, cupcake, police truck, and grilled cheese sandwiches. I have a birthday cumming up and I might ask for the same menu…. Oh wait I don’t do sugar anymore. Well back to the drawing board.
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We love and miss you little Benjamin. I wish we went so far away this week, but I have to do this so I can make all the other ones. Don’t worry little buddy there will be more cake, more balloons, and more family fun.

See you soon Benjamin,
Love dad

My new back pack

So this is day 3 of my 2nd round of chemotherapy. This is different from my first round of chemo. Since I was such a good patient on the first round I’m able to take my chemo out of the hospital. I have a backpack that gets refilled once a day. Take a look.

Each night we drop my MD Anderson and pickup my next 24 hours of chemotherapy. They check me out and send me on my way. So I’m locked into wearing this backpack that sounds like a automatic soap dispenser. I’m still not use to having it connected to my piccl line so I often stand up and start to walk away from it and it follows me.

I get rid of the pack late Monday night. I looks like It will run till 11:30 and then I have another bag of chemo that last an hour.  By the time I get use to totting this bag around it will be gone. This is how my following rounds will be administered.

Love – Derrick

Video update – Md Anderson update 10.09.2014

Hooked up

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Today I get hooked up for 4 hours and then I’m given a bag to take with me. Looks like nap time for me.

Derrick, out.

Rich Caldwell guitar - Brick House Recording Studio Corpus Christi

Erase – Project song by Rich Caldwell and Derrick Perrin

In the year 2000 or 2001 I was running recording sessions at The Brick House Recording Studio in Corpus Christi, Texas. I got on-board there after my band UPC had recorded there. If you ever want to get close with a group of friends I suggest locking yourself in a recording studio for a week. If you survive the week you will have friends for life. One of those friends was Richard Caldwell.

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The band UPC at The Brick House Recording studio – Corpus Christi, Texas 2000

Rich was big into running live sound and I had desires of running recording sessions. We naturally hit it off and could sit and talk about transistors and resistors all day and night.  One day he called me up and wanted to hang out at the studio. We broke out the guitars, keyboard & turntables and just started messing around. At some point we decided to start recording.

Rich Caldwell - RICO on guitar at the Brick House - Corpus Christi Texas

A few hours had passed and we had the basic song layers tracked out. Rich told me to setup a microphone because he had some lyrics. So I set him up and hit record. This is what came out of his head. No lyric sheet no notes, just Rich Caldwell and a microphone in a dark room.

The next weekend he came back into the studio with me and we mixed it down. Nothing special other than a great time with a great friend.

Lyrics to Erase by Rich Caldwell & Derrick Perrin

Saving my self, Watching my room

Watching the sun chase down the moon

Cigarette burns, burns in my mind

Thought from the past leave me blind

they leave me blind

 

Lost in my self (my Self)

Lost it from you (from you)

Had to be quiet

Not quite what to do

Heaven away, heavens in you

lost in my mind, I think I’m with you

I think I can too.

 

Erase, Erase

Erase You, Erase You, Erase You, Erase You

Erase You, Erase You, Erase You, Erase You

I think I’m with you, I think

 

Never returns

Tables that turns

Thoughts ________

Colors they burn

Burn in my mind, burn in my mouth

Sticks to my tong ,Thinks I’m clown

Erase mind

Erase my soul

Heavens a part

I think I’m blind

I think I’m blind

I’m not sure if I nailed all the lyrics but you get the idea. If I had to guess I would have to say the song is about a breakup with a girlfriend. After all that is why Rich was free to come play at the studio on a Friday night.

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I miss my time at The Brick House Recording studio. Being a recording engineer was a dream job. I was able to take people’s dreams and make them into albums. Recording music is like being a videographer, you are documenting a story.  Rich, I’m glad I saved this file after so many years. I know there are a lot of folks who loved you and would love to hear another thing you touched. Thanks for being a great friend. I can’t wait till we meet again.

-Derrick Perrin

A Bad Hair Day

During this cancer process there have been a few things that have made it more real. There is a lot of denial that takes place. I have tried to be real about everything that is going on but sometimes you sit there and hope the doctors have it all wrong. You hope that the scan comes back negative and your life will jump back to normal. After my first MRI scan I could not get through another scan without shedding a tear. Each and every test or scan brought me closer and closer to putting the denial away and accepting the fact I do have cancer and this is my new life.

After all my scans and biopsy work, my next hurdle was walking into my hospital room. Up to that point I had been diagnosed but not treated for cancer. Now that I was there at the door threshold I was still thinking, “If they don’t hook me up to that machine, if they don’t start pushing chemo, I don’t have cancer.

My first run of chemotherapy came and went and I’m starting to realize I might have cancer. While in my stay at M.D. Anderson everyone kept asking if I still had all my hair. Knowing they were pushing hard chemo on me I knew it was going to come out somewhere down the line. I told Kendra one day in the hospital about my fear of my hair coming out. I didn’t have a fear of walking around with a bald head, but the fact I can still deny cancer up till that day.

That day is here!

So I was brushing my teeth and I decided to wet my hair and style it. I quickly noticed a few extra hairs in the sink. Oh crap, I’m loosing my hair. I know I have no choice of how my body reacts to chemotherapy but I was hoping to be one of the chosen ones who keeps their hair. I know this was just wishful thinking and that if I loose my hair its not the end of the world because I still have life. Check me out in this little video clip.

So there you have it, I’m back to being bald. This was my choice hair cut my senior year in high-school. Due to loss of weight and loss of hair I’m back to the same style and weight I was when I started my senior year.

So there you have it, the answer is YES I will loose my hair. Yes, I have cancer and yes I’m fighting everyday.

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Thanks for the prayers

Derrick Perrin, the bald guy.

Pesto with Basil & Almond

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In the blender jar today we have pesto made with basil and almonds.

I start with 2 cups of Basil cut from the yard. I add 1/4 cup of roasted almonds. All I had was raw almonds so I soaked then in the 2/3 cup if oil the recipe asked for. I subbed the olive oil for a 50/50 olive an coconut oil mix. I was also missing the Parmesan cheese so I subbed an Italian mix and a chunk of goat cheese.
I hit the blend and came out with a nutty pesto sauce that Kendra approved of. We will test it over pasta tonight.

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