D Perrin at MD Anderson
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Cancer, Its a beautiful thing!

I sat outside the doctor’s office where I had my MRI done. I opened up the paperwork preparing to see the length of my Hip labral tear and I did get that and so much more. In that same report I got the news that I had cancer. In that same second I got a new perspective on life. 15 minutes after reading the results and letting it sink in I had to pull the car over and reread the report and make sure Derrick Perrin was the name attached to the report.
MRI Results
Yep, it was me on the top of the medical report, and unless the scan of my most inner bits was 100% wrong I have some form of cancer. After the tears stopped I immediately had a new focus. I don’t know how others handle the information but my first question is how long do I have to live. I bypassed the “How bad is it” because I knew it had been hurting me for quite a while wasn’t getting any better.

As I sit today I know its a stage 4 diffused large b cell lymphoma.

When someone has a car wreck or a heart attack and dies they leave us abruptly. They are gone it a flash without a chance of saying thank you or goodby. I’m lucky and see the world through my cancer glasses. The world is so beautiful this way. I’m not sure if other folks can truly understand. Before I was diagnosed I knew a few folks who had cancer and had a perspective that only comes with cancer. I just couldn’t figure it out till I was diagnosed.  Its like a switch went off, or on depending on how you look at it.

I now sit in M.D. Anderson. I’m on day 2 of 5 of chemotherapy. These last 3 weeks have been hard as shit. Be here, be there, come quick, wait long & come back soon. If taking care of cancer was just taking the right medicines I think there would be a higher survival rate. But having a new look on life helps get past the crap easier.

And back to how cancer is a beautiful!

New Living Translation – Psalm 139:16
You saw me before I was born. Every day of my life was recorded in your book. Every moment was laid out before a single day had passed.

So knowing I don’t really have control helps and brings be comfort. We all know we are going to die sometime. We don’t know if it will be why we sleep or in a car accident or any other way he has chosen. We just know there is no fountain of youth and a day has already been chosen to meet our maker. In my new vision on life I can properly tell folks thank you and what they mean to me in my life. It gives me a chance to say goodby. We don’t know if that goodby is 3 weeks, 3 years, 30 years or longer. I get to share love with everyone who has shared their love with me.  Each passing day I find there are more and more of you out there. If you have reached out I thank you so much and if I don’t get to personally chat with you please know I cherish each and every letter, card, comment, prayer, like, & share. You guys make this fight a lot easier to face. I’m trying to write more often and will be expressing things here. I’m finding a way to fold up the macho man appearance and share whats going on inside.

D Perrin at MD Anderson

Derrick Perrin at the observation deck at M.D. Anderson – Houston, Texas

Thank you for the love and prayers. I appreciate all of you and am thankful I have what I have because I have been shown a greater love than I ever knew was possible.  I’m trying to share that love back. I’m not wishing everyone could get cancer, I just wish everyone could see the world the way I do now.

Back to the fight. I love you all.

Derrick

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27 observations on “Cancer, Its a beautiful thing!
  1. Scott Schoenthal

    Derrick,
    You certainly have a gift that allows you to put words down that most people can’t. I can fully understand your outlook and completely agree. Misty and I are thinking about y’all everyday. You got this man!!!

     
    1. deeperrin

      Scott you are my hero. From the first day I met you you have been humble and kind. Your wife and kids are lucky to have you. This is day 2 of walking in shoes you have been in for years. I salute you and your ability to step up and fight like hell every day of your life. Hope things are going well in your world. Call when you get a chance.

       
  2. Tish

    Well, soulmate, you really moved me here. I don’t have to tell you how much I love you, and so does Dave. We pray twice daily for you.

     
  3. Tish

    Derrick, my soulmate, your comments really moved me. You know how much I love you, and so does Dave. We pray for you twice daily, and sometimes in between. Whatever happens, we will be here for you and Kendra and the kids.

     
  4. RENE C. BOSQUEZ

    Keep up the good fight my man! We are all pulling for you. We are Praying for your healing and for you and your young Families strength.

     
  5. Sam Webb

    Derrick – I will continue the prayers that God only wanted to open your eyes and will let you live to be an old man with your beautiful family. BTHOcancer!!

     
    1. deeperrin

      San, glad to see you buddy. It has been a while. No matter what else happens from this cancer fight I find that it has weaves my life together each passing day. Folks that I have not thought about in years are back as if the years never separated us. A truly amazing thing.

       
  6. Gerardo Hernandez

    My Brother D,
    It is difficult to find the right words to express what is in my heart for you right now, but we praise God for giving you a perspective that only He can. At first your title, “cancer, it’s a beautiful thing” caught me offguard. After having read it though, it is actually quite appropriate. We don’t know what the future holds, but we do know who holds the future. God doesn’t cause these things, but in his love and compassion for us, sometimes he allows these things to happen, for our sake. Araceli and I will continue to ask God to heal you completely from any form of cancer, and that you may continue to grow in Him and be all that He has called you to be. There is much to do, so continue to fight the good fight!
    I have watched you grow from the young man who came to me wanting to learn the recording arts, to a strong, responsible, loving husband, father and professional!
    I am very proud of you and I love you Bro!

    G & Araceli

     
    1. deeperrin

      G, it has been a great ride. A ride that is not even close to being over with. Its been amazing to have God fearing men like you as mentors along the way. Still figuring out day by day what it is he needs from me. We know he never gives us anything we can’t handle. I just never had any idea he has the confidence in me to take on so much. He built me so he knows I’m good for it.
      Take care bro

       
  7. Neelie Zietz

    My thought and prayers are with you and Kendra. Stay strong and keep your beautiful outlook on life. Love you.

     
  8. Becky Harrell

    Oh Derrick, you so get it…it was cancer that began my road to understanding what a precious gift life is and how wonderful are all God has allowed to pass into and through out lives….and it does NOT end here. Prayers continue for God’s Hand upon you body, your spirit, your family…your Creator and Maker has you in the Palm of His Hands. Blessings

     
    1. deeperrin

      I’m not sure how people battle on in life without knowing him and without knowing what is ahead once our time on earth is done. Its good to know where we go from here.
      Thanks for the prayers and the positive words.

       
  9. Jayme arnold

    We pray for you everyday….. As someone said in a recent comment you defiantly have a gift for arranging amazing thoughts on “paper” . We are so looking forward to your book signing someday! You have lots more to do here in this dimension , so fight on soldier and keep feeling the love….. There’s a lot out there for you and your whole family! Lv from Kermit!

     
    1. deeperrin

      The kid who can’t spell and doesn’t know where to put commas write a book… not to sure about that.
      Thanks for the goodies in the mail. Great stuff. We are planning a trip out west soon and look to come visit you. I have a break from Tuesday till October 9th.
      -Derrick

       
  10. Monica

    I’m so glad to read your thought and feel the love you are expressing! I’m praying for you all the time and am thankful to have you and your family in my life. You’ve blessed me in so many ways. I pray God blesses you with a long and happy life!

     
    1. deeperrin

      Hey Monica,
      Things are going smooth right now. Not sure if it is the calm before the storm but so far the medication is treating me well. The first 3 weeks at MD Anderson were a pain in the neck but were necessary to get me were I am now. Thank you for the prayers an look forward to catching up.

       
  11. Phyllis

    I think about you every day and know that your faith and strength of character will beat this thing. I am so in awe of your positive perspective – and yes you can write a book! That is what proof-readers and editors are for. Get started – you have so much to share with the world. My love is with you, Kendra and the kids.

     
  12. Wendy

    Derrick, your words are so beautiful. They brought tears to my eyes. My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family.

     
  13. Kellie Bramlet

    Hi Derrick,

    I work on the MD Anderson website and was wondering if you’d be interested in sharing your story. If so, please email me at cancerwise@mdanderson.org. Thanks so much!
    Kellie Bramlet
    MD Anderson Cancer Center
    Communications specialist